There is a quote: Some were born to be lucky, some were born to be fighters. I think I am the second one. Sometimes, it is to pathetic when I see people always get what they want easily, reach their goals without too much effort whereas I always have to struggle in any condition, spend to much effort, time, and strength to get what I want. I know I am supposed to be grateful for all what I have and what I get now, but I just and ordinary man with my desires.
I am accustomed by my family to do my own responsibilities, no one will help me. If I want it, I fight for it. If I do not finish my tasks, I have to accept the result. If I finish my tasks well, I have to do the next better. It is a lesson. Sometimes it can be a trigger for me, doing anything for my goal by myself, being an independent person, taft, and strong . But in the other side, I feel that it all make me in the difficulty and ineffectiveness instead, especially for study. I sometimes think if I get support, appreciation, and support from my family, I could be better, smarter, and happier.
I envy with my friends get all what I want. The real example, when we would face an exam, my friend’s parents prepared everything for her. If she wanted to eat noodle, her mother made it for her. Her brother was always ready go to copy her materials for her. She gets full supports and appreciation from the people around her. The one she has to do is study. Different with me, exam or not, I have to prepare anything by my self. And if it is the time for me to wash, so I have to. It is a real. Because that, after long long time then I realize that I were born indeed to be fighter and surrender.
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